He used to sit on my lap. I was sort of ambivalent about that. He was surviving any way he could.
Meaning of the quote
The author is describing a situation where someone would sit on her lap, and she felt unsure about it. The author recognizes that the person was just trying to get by, to survive, in whatever way they could. The author acknowledges this difficult situation without passing judgment.
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